A Dear Cheddy Letter/ I share with U all

Dearest Cheddy

I'm full of emotions as I think of what to write to u. Watching U today, dealing with wanting to be present and dealing with your emotions, touched my heart. I'm so proud of the person u have become. U went from spinning out of control to pulling the parachute right on time.
I'm honored to have shared time with u, to have followed your tears and even stumbled into your laughter's. Through it all, u managed to pick yourself up, brush your shoulders and u went forward. I know that in life u have your falling out and u might have to face obstacles but I'm so confident that u will deliver each time with your head healed up high.

You're such a great spirit. U are a caring person, a loving person and a spiritual person. U have been in the mist of many storms and have walked away with some pain. But now; now u walked away completely UN-harm. I don't know where u get the strength from but I do know where your hope comes from.

I know u are battling with your last email u wrote and I know it will take time for u to completely let it just be. But for u to understand that it is just emotions expressed on paper... well... that's great of u. It takes a big person with great beauty to have compassion. I know u have just that!

It has taken me 37 years to write to u and just thank u for being the person u are. I know the passion u carry inside, to just love and be loved. And I truly know that special person will step into your arms and will not want to be let go.

I wish u so much love and hope. U have the Grace of God and the Presence of Mercy.

I remember one blue day u asked me... "what is my purpose in my life?"
"what am I living for?" and I just listened to u but I had no answer.

But now... I want to repeat what I heard u say to me not to long ago.

You said... "my purpose in life is my voice,spirit and humility. I am to show others what hope is. To share my knowledge with others and to be present." "I live for me and for my faith and for my Godson. To teach him to be a great person. I want to live a journey of hope and salvation"

When I listened and stayed present in your view, I instantly cried and lived. U might be living again for many others but I personally feel u are finally alive for U.

Thank u for showing me what greatness looks like and thank u for telling me that Hope really does Float.

I love u soo much and may God keep blessing U!
Cheddy

I share this because 

 

Count on me - Whitney Houston- with lyrics

Validate Yourself Now not Later!

"I am completely present when I say what I say..."

FEELINGS WE ALL NEED TO REMEMBER TO USE IN OUR DAY TO DAY. BE HONEST WITH U FIRST! 

I'm sharing this information with u all because it was shared with me. My therapist has worked with me to learn to appreciate myself and to put myself first on the list. I have been working on Me and I want U to work on U! 

STARTING POINTS FOR YOUR SOUL HEALING!

If U are invited somewhere or asked to do something but you're not comfortable and that person expects for U to explain WHY; U can simply say "that doesn't work for me"

Remember: U don't have to give drawn out explanations or be sorry for your decisions, u can just say...

It's not about U, it's not a problem, you are not a bad person but that doesn't work for me.

U have to teach people to respect U when U put U first.

Remember: they are use to U putting them First, so be kind and patient and allow them to understand your growth and faith in U.

If they suggest something different and U feel at ease, calm and peace then U can say...

Now... "this does work for me" 

In order for U to be respected and put first U have to change your way of action. 

BECOME KIND AND STAY IN THE PRESENT! DON'T DISCONNECT FROM THE MOMENT.

ASK THEM: Family, Friends, Associates, anyone u interact with...

• Is this a good time? Maybe to meet, greet and or speak.
• Work on being present in the moment and if U can repeat word for word what has been told to u... Do So! 

• I would like a Do Over! if u said something wrong or hurtful, ask for a Do Over.

Teach People to change the way they treat U. Be sharp in your actions, show and give love and compassion and be your own leader. 


U must be validated by others because U validate yourself. 

Above all... Have Faith in Your Higher Power!!!

 Cheddy/Meche

DEEP THOUGHTS I HAD TODAY!

Hello U all... welcome to my inner thoughts of today. 

I had a lovely conversation with a dear person today. My reasons for living more now then ever has been made clear to her. She understands my today's and she understands my yesterday's.


I'm present in everything I do today. When I'm in a conversation with people, I'm present. When I'm writing, I'm present. And when I'm speaking, I'm present.


How many of you all have been in a deep conversation, and mentally have drifted away somewhere far; Have returned back to that moment hearing the person you are conversating with ask you "where the hell did u go?" "it seems u just daydreamed."

Guess what... You just disconnected briefly from that moment. Whatever the conversation was, you needed to disengage. 

For a large part of my life, up to a few months ago, I was doing just that. It's easy to leave the moment mentally and go some where safe mentally. I call it my safe zone. At least for me, it was my SAFE ZONE. The pain was less. Emotionally I just didn't want to deal with the present bullshit. And while the conversation accured or the gatherings with family and friends took place, I would disconnect, protect myself and be in my safe zone.

You Ask: WHY ARE YOU INFORMING US "THE READERS" OF THIS? 

Because I want you to see my heart of Gold and understand that as bruised and beat up as my heart has been, I managed to survive and live again.

I have stumbled and have falling hard. Not able to even get up. Not wanting to keep going. Just giving up on many things. And this was when I started to laugh and giggle and smile and shine.
When the tough was too hard, My heart beat stronger and my soul became powerful. 

Five and half years ago, I admitted being an alcoholic. I cried like never before. I seeked help and got clean. Two years and five months ago today I relapse, cried and seeked help again.

When you attend AA meetings, the first thing they teach you besides your name being attached to your problem, was... how to truly have Faith in a Higher Power.

Because without that Faith in your Higher Power... AA Meetings means shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yup I said... AA Meetings will mean shit if you don't have Faith in a Higher Power. So when I sought help the very first time, I cried and asked God to forgive me and help me. EVERYTHING ELSE FELL INTO PLACE. 

But don't forget, we will keep falling and stumbling and sometimes crashing but we MUST rise to the beat of your Higher Power's drum! We must not give in, except, ask for forgiveness, and reach for your Faith!

The punch line to all this. The message I'm trying to teach u is, No matter what U go through, at the end of it all, Your Faith is your saving Grace. Without it, You will be just a shell!

WELCOME TO MY INNER THOUGHTS OF TODAY.

ANY QUESTIONS??????????????????????  
  

 Cheddy/Meche

THE BEAT IN MY HEART

I laugh when I feel my thoughts are happy and when my spirit screams of Joy, I scream too.

I want to thank my Higher Power(God)for giving me Faith and Grace. I can't make it in this world of darkness without my Faith. 

My therapist once asked me "Do U have Hope today?" what was it that I replied? I just don't remember! She knows... and if for any reason she reads this today... she smiles because her memory reminds her of what it was that I said to that question.

But today I stand strong saying Yes... Hope Floats! oh it has because I have seen it and it does because I have felt it. 
My life is Hope and it Floats. I'm so blessed for the grace upon me that I have a need... a must... to pass it forward. I breath the need to want to share it loud and clear now.

I have learned finally after all the readings and writings I have done these past six years; I have learned to shower myself with God's blessed water. I'm putting grace, patients, and love in the water that I have cleaned and I add comfort and trust. Then I take it and I pour the water on my soul.

I then wait for the growth in me to take it's place and as it takes place, I become more and more beautiful each day. 

I am soo special and soo blessed. I am a soul of joy and  laughter, of understanding and commitment, of beauty and elegance. I am Me... a survivor of many obstacles.

All of this U read, I have giving to the universe and all of this U read, the universe has politely given back to me. And for this... I am thankful and grateful.

ASK, BELIEVE, RECEIVE

My Therapist(yes, my wonderful therapist)(hahaha :-) I actually teamed up with my doc so that I may learn to heal) told me about a year and a half ago to purchase this book. She was reading it and she thought it would help me understand my moment then and my moments NOW.

I READ THE BOOK. LOVED IT. READ IT AGAIN. LOVED IT. RECENTLY TOOK MYSELF TO THE MOVIES TO WATCH IT AND STARTED READING THE BOOK FOR THE THIRD TIME AGAIN.

Juice has the book now, she is reading it. this pic is courtesy of PRO-JUICE... thanks for the pic Juice!

I have some random special thoughts to share with u all. Don't stop reading... take this moment to check this out and maybe apply to your life. 

WHAT U THINK IS WHAT U GET!!!
3 things to remember: 
thoughts
become
famous
IMAGINE WHAT U REALLY WANT!!!

FAITH IN WHO U ARE WILL CHANGE WHAT U THINK!!!
3 things to work on:
ASK---> what u want
BELIEVE---> what u want
RECEIVE---> taste the fruits of your faith

Place your order into this Universe and rest it all in the hands of your faithful teacher. For most its God or a Higher Power. Allow it to be nurtured by Visualizing it as if it's now and not later. 

Feed your Universe positive power. and It will return to you positive outcomes. 

VISUALIZE TO MATERIALIZE. I CAN, I HAVE, I WILL AND IT'S NOW!!!  

• WEALTH IS A MINDSET!
• FEEL THE POSITIVE FAITH IN CHANGE!
• IF U GO IN THE MIND U WILL GO IN THE BODY!

DON'T SECOND GUESS !

Control your feelings.
Remember: your thoughts cause your feelings; So if your thoughts are all Bad Vibes then your feelings will be overwhelmed and controlled by those Bad Vibes.

If you Celebrate good feelings then your thoughts will simply be controlled by great feelings. 

AGAIN:REMEMBER TO
CONTROL YOUR FEELINGS!

Share with me your thoughts... place your comments. I would love to know what u all think of this.