Desert Rhythms: Learning 2 Do out of your Being. FOR THE FAITHFUL HEARTS!

If you don't take care of your being, your doing is affected. Everybody is AFFECTED! 


You need to find your Center, your Grown, or your Anchor!!!

FIND YOUR DESERT RHYTHMS

ASKED THESE ?'s and SEE if you can find your Center, Grown, or Anchor in them.

1. U avoid silence, and when u do, your mind constantly races.

2. U skip or skim on Sabbath.

3. U hurry a lot.

4. U position urself so that others think well of u.

5. U say "Yes" when U would rather say "No".

6. U are resentful and tired because u regularly "try to do it all".

7. U rarely taste ur food as a gift of God.

8. U have little mindfulness of delighting in Christ's love during the Day.

9. U are often unaware when ur body is full of tension.

10. U have little or no awareness when u are having an overreaction.

11. U check ur social networks 15 or more times a day and it's the last thing u do before u go to bed.

IF U HAVE AGREED WITH 3 OR LESS, U ARE A LITTLE OUT OF BALANCE / IF U AGREE WITH 4 TO 7 THEN SOME SERIOUS ADJUSTMENTS NEED TO BE MADE. / 8 OR MORE THEN U NEED A MAKEOVER FROM INSIDE OUT!

I have checked all thy above I am doing right now. I have No Desert Rhythms because I've made other things more important.

To have DESERT RHYTHMS means------>"Daily" taking time to meditate, writing in ur journal, reflecting in ur day before it begins, really listening to calm music, reading a good book but understanding what you're reading. etc. etc. etc.

WORKING ON YOURSELF... PERIOD!

REMEMBER FAITHFUL HEART: When you're triggered by somebody and you're over reacting, that will tell u something about u and not them.

Mark 1:21-39

 Desert: "uninhabited place, place of solitude, place out of the way to avoid crowds"

Cheddy

A Blessing!

A GOD-MOMMY(parent) is a spiritual light of grace and wisdom. It's the ability to welcome a free soul to rest under your wings. It's a chance to love unconditionally a child of God. To embrace, to celebrate, and to be at one with the teachings of his/her parents. It's a bond that is unbreakable. A chance to share stories of your upbringings and pass them on to him/her.
 
*IT'S TO INSURE THE FOUNDATION IS TWICE AS STRONG, BEFORE THE BUILDING BEGINS TO BE BUILT.

IT'S WALKING IN FAITH AND NOT BY SIGHT.*

I seat in silence thinking how beautiful this moment is for me. Thinking how humble my Lord is to have picked me to be this precious little boy's God-mommy. 

When his daddy placed him in his grandmother's arms, I took a breath because it represented unconditional love from the past to the present. 

When his daddy then took him and placed him in my arms, my heart became full. It was that moment God touched me and said, "U are and will be a great God-mommy and this is why I picked U."

I kissed his forehead as he slept in my arms and I promised God that I will do what He ask of me to do for Kaleb. 

I looked at his mommy and she smiled knowing I would keep my Promise. 

It's great to have Faith because Faith will fill your walk of life better then a blast of sight!

Madrina(AkA-->GodMommy) Loves U Kaleb...

GO GET UR MoJo BACK------>>> Motivation & Joy

We walk around this earth (we call home) thinking "what now, where do we go from here, how can it be different, why us and what is the purpose?" Questions we asked everyday on many occasions during our daily living.

We watch others and we watch their lives as if it's better then ours. They don't have problems and they live so much better then us... thoughts we feed our hearts. "If only my life could be so much better" We say this to ourselves over and over again.

This is how we think. This has become our way of living. This is our train of thoughts!!!

WHY? WHY? WHY?  WE THINK THIS WAY BECAUSE THINKING NEGATIVE IS EASIER THEN WORKING ON THINKING POSITIVE. 

Our family members have done so for many years and they raised us to be selfish and think negative. It's a broken cycle that they never had reference to break free from.

YOU CAN'T ALWAYS BE NEGATIVE AND EXPECT PEOPLE TO BE POSITIVE ABOUT YOU!

The battlefield for the believer is the mind... GET UR MOJO BACK!

WHEN WE ARE NO LONGER ABLE TO CHANGE A SITUATION, WE ARE CHALLENGED TO CHANGE OURSELVES.

1ST CHANGE YOUR SYSTEM OF BELIEF(YOUR MIND)

WE MUST TRY TO SEE BEYOND OUR TEARS... HAVE FAITH!!!

EVEN THOUGH WE LIVE IN A WORLD FULL OF SORROW WE MUST UNDERSTAND THAT IT DOESN'T LIVE IN US.

A CHANGE MUST TAKE PLACE... LETS START WITH U... THE READER!

As the writer, I started to change my system of belief by practicing what my Faith is.
FAITH---->>>> CONFIDENCE, BELIEF THAT IS NOT BASED ON SIGHT. BELIEF OF A HIGHER POWER OF SALVATION, ORDER AND CHANGE.

WILL U ALLOW YOUR FAITH TO RETURN YOUR MOJO BACK WHEN TIMES ARE OF NEGATIVE FEELINGS AND HOPES ARE OF LOW ENERGY.


GO GET UR MOJO BACK... DON'T ALLOW NOTHING TO TAKE IT AWAY!

John 14 (Read the Message Translation) U NOW HAVE REFERENCE TO DO SO!

I SHARE THIS WITH U BECAUSE:

Cheddy

WHY?

My friend Tootie Ann wrote this today. It got me to thinking "why?" Why do WE settle for less when WE know we're worth more? 

Why are signs ignored cause WE "love" someone.... 

Why do we ignore the GOOD ones for the BAD ones? 

Why do we block the truth out to accept lies? 

Why? 

Why do we hold on when we know we should let go? 

Why do we make excuses? 

Why do we procrastinate and expect results? 

And why do we complain when we can get out? 

Why? 

Why do we feel we can't get better? 

Why do we doubt ourselves? 

Why is it so easy to hate instead of love?

Why is it so hard to forgive? 

Why is it easier to believe a lie than the truth? 

Or is it that we want to believe the hatred and gossip? 

Why?

I share this with U all because

WHAT DO U KNOW FOR SURE??

As I step into another stage in my life, of growth, of loyalty, of teachings and learning's; I've asked myself "WHAT DO U KNOW FOR SURE?"

I know for sure my heart will always go on to stand with strong beats in someone's life. I know for sure my hope will out last someone's doubts. I know for sure the gift to keep giving others will overwhelm the questionable minds. I know for sure I will forever stay humble and honest; to love with passion and sensitivity. I know now for sure that when I NOW cry, they are tears of joy. TEARS OF FINALLY UNDERSTANDING AND FINALLY KNOWING WHY!

I know for sure when I write it's because I want to write and it comes from my soul. I know for sure I use passion in my words. I know for sure when to pick the time, day and moment. I know for sure that I am POWERFUL!

Today I was faced with many early obstacles and for a moment I felt powerless, out of control and even less then. 


I quickly took control of that moment, asked myself ""Are u going to allow these obstacles to take the best from u?"    
"NOPE, HELL NO AND I BELIEVE NOT!!!"

So I handled it with respect for me and with respect towards the situation and obstacles. I excepted the Karma that I once dismissed and took responsibility for my past mis-conduct. 

IT FELT SOO GOOD AND SOO FREE! I felt like a happy person who has it all. Health, Love, Freedom, Money, and Power. 

I'm learning that as a person U can have all this when U learn to see it for what it is. When U reach into your foundation and U can see a solid ground and U can feel it; It's when U know U can start to built and understand.

!

So... I ask U one more time:

WHAT DO U KNOW FOR SURE??

A Dear Cheddy Letter/ I share with U all

Dearest Cheddy

I'm full of emotions as I think of what to write to u. Watching U today, dealing with wanting to be present and dealing with your emotions, touched my heart. I'm so proud of the person u have become. U went from spinning out of control to pulling the parachute right on time.
I'm honored to have shared time with u, to have followed your tears and even stumbled into your laughter's. Through it all, u managed to pick yourself up, brush your shoulders and u went forward. I know that in life u have your falling out and u might have to face obstacles but I'm so confident that u will deliver each time with your head healed up high.

You're such a great spirit. U are a caring person, a loving person and a spiritual person. U have been in the mist of many storms and have walked away with some pain. But now; now u walked away completely UN-harm. I don't know where u get the strength from but I do know where your hope comes from.

I know u are battling with your last email u wrote and I know it will take time for u to completely let it just be. But for u to understand that it is just emotions expressed on paper... well... that's great of u. It takes a big person with great beauty to have compassion. I know u have just that!

It has taken me 37 years to write to u and just thank u for being the person u are. I know the passion u carry inside, to just love and be loved. And I truly know that special person will step into your arms and will not want to be let go.

I wish u so much love and hope. U have the Grace of God and the Presence of Mercy.

I remember one blue day u asked me... "what is my purpose in my life?"
"what am I living for?" and I just listened to u but I had no answer.

But now... I want to repeat what I heard u say to me not to long ago.

You said... "my purpose in life is my voice,spirit and humility. I am to show others what hope is. To share my knowledge with others and to be present." "I live for me and for my faith and for my Godson. To teach him to be a great person. I want to live a journey of hope and salvation"

When I listened and stayed present in your view, I instantly cried and lived. U might be living again for many others but I personally feel u are finally alive for U.

Thank u for showing me what greatness looks like and thank u for telling me that Hope really does Float.

I love u soo much and may God keep blessing U!
Cheddy

I share this because 

 

Count on me - Whitney Houston- with lyrics

Validate Yourself Now not Later!

"I am completely present when I say what I say..."

FEELINGS WE ALL NEED TO REMEMBER TO USE IN OUR DAY TO DAY. BE HONEST WITH U FIRST! 

I'm sharing this information with u all because it was shared with me. My therapist has worked with me to learn to appreciate myself and to put myself first on the list. I have been working on Me and I want U to work on U! 

STARTING POINTS FOR YOUR SOUL HEALING!

If U are invited somewhere or asked to do something but you're not comfortable and that person expects for U to explain WHY; U can simply say "that doesn't work for me"

Remember: U don't have to give drawn out explanations or be sorry for your decisions, u can just say...

It's not about U, it's not a problem, you are not a bad person but that doesn't work for me.

U have to teach people to respect U when U put U first.

Remember: they are use to U putting them First, so be kind and patient and allow them to understand your growth and faith in U.

If they suggest something different and U feel at ease, calm and peace then U can say...

Now... "this does work for me" 

In order for U to be respected and put first U have to change your way of action. 

BECOME KIND AND STAY IN THE PRESENT! DON'T DISCONNECT FROM THE MOMENT.

ASK THEM: Family, Friends, Associates, anyone u interact with...

• Is this a good time? Maybe to meet, greet and or speak.
• Work on being present in the moment and if U can repeat word for word what has been told to u... Do So! 

• I would like a Do Over! if u said something wrong or hurtful, ask for a Do Over.

Teach People to change the way they treat U. Be sharp in your actions, show and give love and compassion and be your own leader. 


U must be validated by others because U validate yourself. 

Above all... Have Faith in Your Higher Power!!!

 Cheddy/Meche

DEEP THOUGHTS I HAD TODAY!

Hello U all... welcome to my inner thoughts of today. 

I had a lovely conversation with a dear person today. My reasons for living more now then ever has been made clear to her. She understands my today's and she understands my yesterday's.


I'm present in everything I do today. When I'm in a conversation with people, I'm present. When I'm writing, I'm present. And when I'm speaking, I'm present.


How many of you all have been in a deep conversation, and mentally have drifted away somewhere far; Have returned back to that moment hearing the person you are conversating with ask you "where the hell did u go?" "it seems u just daydreamed."

Guess what... You just disconnected briefly from that moment. Whatever the conversation was, you needed to disengage. 

For a large part of my life, up to a few months ago, I was doing just that. It's easy to leave the moment mentally and go some where safe mentally. I call it my safe zone. At least for me, it was my SAFE ZONE. The pain was less. Emotionally I just didn't want to deal with the present bullshit. And while the conversation accured or the gatherings with family and friends took place, I would disconnect, protect myself and be in my safe zone.

You Ask: WHY ARE YOU INFORMING US "THE READERS" OF THIS? 

Because I want you to see my heart of Gold and understand that as bruised and beat up as my heart has been, I managed to survive and live again.

I have stumbled and have falling hard. Not able to even get up. Not wanting to keep going. Just giving up on many things. And this was when I started to laugh and giggle and smile and shine.
When the tough was too hard, My heart beat stronger and my soul became powerful. 

Five and half years ago, I admitted being an alcoholic. I cried like never before. I seeked help and got clean. Two years and five months ago today I relapse, cried and seeked help again.

When you attend AA meetings, the first thing they teach you besides your name being attached to your problem, was... how to truly have Faith in a Higher Power.

Because without that Faith in your Higher Power... AA Meetings means shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yup I said... AA Meetings will mean shit if you don't have Faith in a Higher Power. So when I sought help the very first time, I cried and asked God to forgive me and help me. EVERYTHING ELSE FELL INTO PLACE. 

But don't forget, we will keep falling and stumbling and sometimes crashing but we MUST rise to the beat of your Higher Power's drum! We must not give in, except, ask for forgiveness, and reach for your Faith!

The punch line to all this. The message I'm trying to teach u is, No matter what U go through, at the end of it all, Your Faith is your saving Grace. Without it, You will be just a shell!

WELCOME TO MY INNER THOUGHTS OF TODAY.

ANY QUESTIONS??????????????????????  
  

 Cheddy/Meche

THE BEAT IN MY HEART

I laugh when I feel my thoughts are happy and when my spirit screams of Joy, I scream too.

I want to thank my Higher Power(God)for giving me Faith and Grace. I can't make it in this world of darkness without my Faith. 

My therapist once asked me "Do U have Hope today?" what was it that I replied? I just don't remember! She knows... and if for any reason she reads this today... she smiles because her memory reminds her of what it was that I said to that question.

But today I stand strong saying Yes... Hope Floats! oh it has because I have seen it and it does because I have felt it. 
My life is Hope and it Floats. I'm so blessed for the grace upon me that I have a need... a must... to pass it forward. I breath the need to want to share it loud and clear now.

I have learned finally after all the readings and writings I have done these past six years; I have learned to shower myself with God's blessed water. I'm putting grace, patients, and love in the water that I have cleaned and I add comfort and trust. Then I take it and I pour the water on my soul.

I then wait for the growth in me to take it's place and as it takes place, I become more and more beautiful each day. 

I am soo special and soo blessed. I am a soul of joy and  laughter, of understanding and commitment, of beauty and elegance. I am Me... a survivor of many obstacles.

All of this U read, I have giving to the universe and all of this U read, the universe has politely given back to me. And for this... I am thankful and grateful.

ASK, BELIEVE, RECEIVE

My Therapist(yes, my wonderful therapist)(hahaha :-) I actually teamed up with my doc so that I may learn to heal) told me about a year and a half ago to purchase this book. She was reading it and she thought it would help me understand my moment then and my moments NOW.

I READ THE BOOK. LOVED IT. READ IT AGAIN. LOVED IT. RECENTLY TOOK MYSELF TO THE MOVIES TO WATCH IT AND STARTED READING THE BOOK FOR THE THIRD TIME AGAIN.

Juice has the book now, she is reading it. this pic is courtesy of PRO-JUICE... thanks for the pic Juice!

I have some random special thoughts to share with u all. Don't stop reading... take this moment to check this out and maybe apply to your life. 

WHAT U THINK IS WHAT U GET!!!
3 things to remember: 
thoughts
become
famous
IMAGINE WHAT U REALLY WANT!!!

FAITH IN WHO U ARE WILL CHANGE WHAT U THINK!!!
3 things to work on:
ASK---> what u want
BELIEVE---> what u want
RECEIVE---> taste the fruits of your faith

Place your order into this Universe and rest it all in the hands of your faithful teacher. For most its God or a Higher Power. Allow it to be nurtured by Visualizing it as if it's now and not later. 

Feed your Universe positive power. and It will return to you positive outcomes. 

VISUALIZE TO MATERIALIZE. I CAN, I HAVE, I WILL AND IT'S NOW!!!  

• WEALTH IS A MINDSET!
• FEEL THE POSITIVE FAITH IN CHANGE!
• IF U GO IN THE MIND U WILL GO IN THE BODY!

DON'T SECOND GUESS !

Control your feelings.
Remember: your thoughts cause your feelings; So if your thoughts are all Bad Vibes then your feelings will be overwhelmed and controlled by those Bad Vibes.

If you Celebrate good feelings then your thoughts will simply be controlled by great feelings. 

AGAIN:REMEMBER TO
CONTROL YOUR FEELINGS!

Share with me your thoughts... place your comments. I would love to know what u all think of this.

I SHUT DOWN TODAY? REFLECTION MODE *__*

I shut down today. I just couldn't get it together. I started to feel very emotional this morning. Maybe because it was 4:30am and I was up looking at my walls; Thinking about my Sat and Sunday Path. Sat. was great, full of laughs and shared moments with others. Sunday was dreadful moments with my family.

I came home Sunday night and was drained. Not wanting to deal with much. Took a shower and seat in the living room wondering. Consumed with tiredness around 3am I headed to sleep, ready to face my Monday.

Then 4:30 am came around and in my zone of trying to sleep again and fight with heavy thoughts, I was up. around 7:30 am I finally got sleepy again and closed my eyes but I woke up around 9:30am and started to cry. My heart weighed very heavy and my spirit couldn't grab a grip of what was going on.


Shattered with emotions and body pain, I knew I didn't feel safe to travel today. I made a decision that bettered me at the moment. I sent my therapist an email note saying I wasn't going to make it today. No sorry no explanation no nothing. Just that I wasn't making it to session today.

I needed to "be still my heart" and dealing with changes of transportation today and the back and forth was not going to be what I needed to do today.

The more I look at my surroundings, the more I'm learning about "who I am." The more I lean towards what my heart and spirit doesn't desire the more "I suffer." 

I might be somewhat complicated right now and emotional to the max. But I'm going to embrace it all and really put thought into it.

I don't want to always do things by the book. I'm not perfect. 

• Maya Angelou said "I can be changed by what happens to me, but I refuse to be reduced by it." 

Today is just one of those days for me.....have u ever been in reflection mode? Where u just analyze why certain people are in your life?

ALL WOMEN SHOULD READ THIS…..AND MEN

THIS IS A POWERFUL STORY…..

 

As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I cant do for myself.

Clearly he thought that she was referring to money.

 

She quickly corrected his thought and stated,

 

“I am not referring to money. ” I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life.”

 

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain.

 

She said “I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don’t need a simple minded man.

 

I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don’t need someone unequally yoked….believers mixed with non-believers is a recipe for disaster. And even if he is a believer, he needs to believe as I do.

 

I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don’t need a financial burden.

 

I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, and strong enough to keep me grounded when I do go through changes. I don’t need a man who is going to purposely bring me grief.

 

I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him and he must respect me.

 

I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business or who is “messy” in his personal affairs. I have no problem being submissive..but he has to be worthy.

 

God made woman to be a help mate for man. I can’t help a man if he can’t help himself.

If he can’t help himself then he definitely can’t help me.

 

When she finished her spiel, she looked at him.

 

He sat there with a puzzled look on his face.

 

He said, “You are asking for a lot”.

 

“She replied, “I’M WORTH  A LOT.”

I'M IN LOVE WITH MY GODSON. HE HAS BECOME MY HOPE THAT FLOAT!

It's soo special to watch my baby grow into his own person. I love U Kaleb. When I'm around him my hope floats!

He gives me reasons to want to speak and live and just smile again. this is him @ seven months just sitting up watching and remembering all that is around him. 

This moment I had to smile because watching him, looking into his eyes lights my soul. His hands and little feet, his button nose and puffy cheeks. The way he watches me and glares at me when he thinks I'm not watching. His baby scent and the innocence of his soul.

I will always keep u in my heart and in my soul until my last breath. I love U my Kaleb. Madrina luvs U!

U inspire me to keep dreaming and living and loving and sharing. U are my heart of Gold and U will forever be my # 1 GodSon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Michael Bolton - Can I Touch You There

WHAT I LIKE AND LOVE... inner person... ME

I love Converses. I started wearing them back when I was about 17(high school yrs). I became so in love of Converses that I owned just about every color there was in that time.
I even had a pair of Polo Converses and Benetton  Converses.

@ that time the kids in school and in the streets use to say "there go that girl with the cheap sneakers" "what's wrong, ur moms can't offered to buy u a pair of Nikes?"

I had Nikes and Addidas and all kinds but when I put a pair of Converse on... I was comfortable with ME.

I love them soo much that I went and got a pair of Red Converses for my Godson...hahahaha. He is seven months but his God mommy already got him his first pair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Converses I love to wear and I love to own.

I am also a realistic person who can put on a gown and a pair of stilettos shoes, put my conditioned hair up and wear some pearls. I can socialize with greatness and never look like a woman who loves Converses.

I like to be able to put on lipstick and blush, some eyeliner and mascara; To walk out of my home and into the eyes of others... as they gasp from the beauty before them, I flirt with my eyes and simply take in the night.

I'm soo much then just flesh. I'm soul, beauty, strength, passion, I'm wisdom, educated, sweetheart. I'm ME!

I'm the shoulder many need to lean on, I'm the eyes of the beholder, I'm that wind beneath many wings, and I'm Cheddy, who is willing to put her heart out there and make a difference in ones life.

And even though that night might be over, the dress will be taking off, the heels will be back in its box, the makeup will be removed, the shell will be filled with a t-shirt, jeans, and Converses... I WILL STILL BE CHEDDY

 

Maxwell - Fistful Of Tears

Vision Board

• I watched a show this past weekend and a light bulb went on in my head. It was a moment where all stood still and only that part of the show continue. 
• A Vision Board she(the young lady in the show)spoke of. Where your dreams and goals and ambitions are placed. Alive in 3D for you to view every time you come in and out of your room.
• Amazed I was... "A vision board" 
• I have two boards in my room, one has appointments and menus and crap and the other has pics of family and friends. Neither represent ME.

HOW MANY OF US HAVE THESE BOARDS IN THE HOME AND IT DOESN'T SAY ANYTHING ABOUT US BUT IT TELLS ALL ABOUT OUR STRUGGLES; FAMILY AND FRIENDS?

• I'm about to take control of one thing I have allowed many to control... "ME"
• My ambitions, dreams and goals will continue to live inside of me. So now I will place them all on a vision board so that I may work on them and not work around them.
• Each board will consist of realistic goals,dreams and ambitions.

THE CHANGE WILL BE FOR ME TO HELP MY INNER VOICE ! 

TELL ME IF U WILL CREATE, HAVE CREATED, OR WANT IDEAS TO CREATE A VISION BOARD. 

01 Hour/06 months/10yrs... or a life time

Written on Thursday, April 9, 2009 at 11:47pm

In a world full of passion, of desires, of lust
How long do we wait
How long do we have

In a world full of anger, ambition, and sadness
How much time do have
How much time do we take

As simple as a kiss can be, as gentle as a hug can reach
Will it be enough to heal the broken heart
Will it be enough to endure A shattered soul

Will an hour be enough to reach the one
Will six months be a memory for most
Can ten years really tell the unity between two

And as we grow asking these questions
Trying to make sense
As we hold on to what we think is fallen

Are we truly holding on for life
Are we truly holding on for Destiny
Are we truly holding on for show
Is the fear of being ONE the fear that holds both

One hour, Six months ten years or Life
I hold on to you because my spirit calls out for your spirit
I hold on to you because your laughter completes my laughter
I hold on to you because your words finishes my words
I hold on to you because

I RATHER HOLD ON TO A LIFE TIME!

I was Born July 04th 1973

JULY ... ME

Posted on Saturday, July 04, 2009 at 9:35pm

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed.

Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful.

Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.

Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally.

Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy.

Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying.

 

There are reasons why parts are highlighted!!!

It is a time to see the spark in the sky.

Written on Saturday, November 14, 2009 at 7:24pm

It is a time to see the spark in the sky.
A time where clearness over takes fearness.
It is a time to shine like the sun above the mountains top.
A time where clouds can't stop the heat from forming.

It is where the greens meet the browns and the glory meets the heavens.
It is here and now not there and later, where hope overflows and laughter;
well... laughter takes over. hahahaha!

It is that passion within that hides and sneaks and celebrates and waits and...
It is that thought of now and where and who and how and... hahahaha!

There must be that place I must go to and I must relate to and I must hold on to and I must grow from.

Because, It's the grown I walk on and the sun I look for and the clouds I sit under for shade; and the comfort of being in that moment at that time in that place.

It's where I need to be... and where I need to go.
It is a time to see the spark in the sky.

Felicita... and the Pearls!

Written on Tuesday, November 17, 2009 at 7:30pm

Words most of the time brings u to a halt. Most times it searches for a question. As we know a question comes with an answer. Fear is that type of word that over powers your ability to go forward with authority.
Trapping your skills, teachings, knowledge, and trust to a motionless march.

The thought of that word "fear" always lurks behind perfectionism. But when you confront your fears... it is you allowing yourself the truth, the right to be human. This act is a saving grace upon your soul to bring a far happier, more productive life.

Is this information true to the naked eye? Is it a way for the lost to find a way back? Or is it just a mere way of bringing information to a page?

A Hot summer day... my Felicita gave me a set of pearls. I looked on with honor and wondered why "me." It was the act of something so kind and not perfect. The act of one person speaking through an object. Felicita wanted something more for me. A preparation of something good to come my way.

Me... afraid of a pen, pencil, paper or the scaffold; I'm not afraid. Not even of a sword... no, I'm not afraid. I am a person who tells the truth wherever I please on a paper, using a pen or pencil.

I engrave my thoughts on white background boards. I'm not afraid! Those white pearls I keep in my heart tightly engraved in my soul. I'm a person with thoughts to her actions... with skills to her movements. I'm Felicita's half. The half she was not. The half she could not. The one giving the name to. The one who held the tools to caring and comforting.

Yes... that was giving to me the day those pearls set place in my hands. And although they didn't leave that summer day... they traveled with me everyday. So think twice and look both ways... for the power of authority, the power of strength is coming like the wind beneath the wings of an eagle; Who flies high upon the skies.

I was asked a question. I was giving an answer. But a choice was not close by.

Written on Tuesday, November 17, 2009 at 5:03pm

 I was asked a question. I was giving an answer. But a choice was not close by.

It is the beat of my heart that keeps me going. There is that inner rhythm that motivates and penatraits. I walk to my own beat of my own drums. And I dance to my on keys.

There is thy sensation of that warm rainbow feeling right after a hot sunny summer; where every thing stops and that rainbow visits your eyes. It tells u to be one with me. To engage in a never ending movement. To reflect in its light.

And that one smile upon my face is felt miles away...its seen from a distance. I want to keep it. I want that warmth to never stop.

The beauty of love...the action of attraction... The mist of that sweet smell between two melodies. Its a song being written and a verse never played.

It is unrepeated... It is unscripted. Take me far away where the kisses won't be interrupted and the body friction won't be stopped. Help me bring that sensation back; back into my body where no-one can reach.

Let it be for me that one song...that one beat...that one key. Come to me and caress my body with your body and let us stop never this forbidden love.

Lay on the comfort of my breast and cuddle with me. Let that question one has for me dissolve and that answer one gave float.

For there is no choice played in this one minute of paused time.

The edge in her seat and the time in her heart!

Written on Sunday, December 6, 2009 at 9:37pm

 

At the edge of her seat she loses herself. In the thoughts of her patients she places her time.

By a clock she keeps time and by the vibration of her blackberry she tracks each message.

By the ring of her phone she continues to help. But it’s her small frame in the edge of the seat, she loses herself to.

These margins exist. They are not meant to contain us but to assure us, that in that moment; that moment is mine.

It’s the way she can read body movement, eye twitching, sadness around the mouth and a head held down.

Not knowing what the unknown at that moment will bring is the strength she assures each session to be.

A power from the education of past educator’s who have educated her. The development of knowledge through a sense of understandings, of hearing and sight.

Oh these margins exist. They are not meant to contain us but to assure us, that in that moment; that moment is mine.

Oh… don’t mistake her for being a push over, for her wit, says other wise.

Her perception and expression speaks louder then the advice she might give.

Her observation is unique and her hope is inspiring. It locks you to want to know; that of tomorrow and deal with yesterday.

Even as a professional she can’t help to be a friend. Someone to rely on, to speak to, to lean on. Even as a professional she is my friend.

Not one you would hang with, share with, spend off business hours with. No…she is not that type of friend. Her Hearing is just to listen… to me.

She is the one you want to visit during business hours with. Spoken words she brings to a close mind.

And yet all this takes place while she sits at the edge of her seat, losing herself in each conversation.

There is no mistaking in her duty; there is no wonder in her time. There is no discomfort.

Only humility takes place and only modest opinions play a role.

Dreams and Goals

A person asked me what are my dreams. To be completely honest... I had to stop and think what are my dreams. They are to be able to open up a cleaning business. I want to have a team, an agency that will come out to homes of famous people and to companies, and make a difference. I also dream of starting my own video company where I can go to events and record their beautiful moments, edit them, add music and backgrounds then gift them with a nice bill. hahahaha My other Dream and Goal is to leave NYC behind and go where the Palms trees are located. I want to start a new beginning and simply remember the past of my days in the Big Apple. I also want to Marry and build my own wonderful family. Grow old with that one person I will love for life. WHAT ARE YOUR GOALS AND DREAMS? WHAT INSPIRES YOU TO MOVE FORWARD?